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Monday, October 20th, 2008
11:48 pm	Life keeps moving like a bus leaving the station. I'm running to catch up. That what every day feels like for me. It's not bad... after all, you know what they say: "A busy life is a good life." I just worked a 50 hour week. I had one day off during which I went to school. Friday night I went to a party at my co-workers house and played beer pong. It was fun but I drank too much and smoked. Fun bunch of people but I was so the oldest one there LOL. I'm talking people who just graduated high school. I realize how immature 18 can look like. Constant sex jokes and references to home room make me feel like an old man so I left the party about 1am. I also needed to sleep a bit since Saturday morning I volunteered for the Obama campaign. Virginia could decide this election and the operation they have going on here is amazing. I went door-to-door (in the rain!) to speak with undecided voters about why I support Barack Obama. The McCain supporters I encountered were very polite and basically said thanks but no thanks punk. I found that the rude people were the Blacks, which suprised me. I expected excitement and respect from them for campaigning for the first black president. Instead almost all Black houses refused to tell me who they were supporting, even though I had said I was with Barack Obama and Mark Warner (Dem Senate candidate). I think, within the Black community,  there is so much distrust and cynicism regarding the political system that they want to keep their vote private and I respect that. I was kind of reluctant to do this work, especially since I was BY MYSELF. I just had to tell myself it is for a cause bigger than myself and my social anxiety issues. Surprisingly, it wasn't  until I encountered Obama supporters that I felt really empowered. When talking with this 61 year old white woman who supports Obama I nearly started to tear up. We discussed the importance of his being elected and what it would mean for our country. We talked about the relevance of him doing so well in Virginia. She thanked me for stopping by and apologized for being slightly rude when I approached as she thought I was a salesman. After this I felt so empowered and energized. I hit 40 houses before I had to haul ass to work. People like me are doing this daily, going door-to-door and making phone calls. I am so busy with school and work but every chance I get over the next 14 days will be dedicated to this election. I'm going out again Wednesday night! The focus now is to get registered voters to the polls. We will be reminding voters when and where to vote, arrange rides to the polls. Virginia has seen an incredible surge of new voters likely to vote Obama...something like 5 million voter registrations last time I checked. If we get those people to the polls, Obama wins Virginia. McCain's chief political strategist said that if Obama wins VA, he wins the race. So I feel I need to do my part. I go to bed now...maybe watch some X-Files. But I must first say to anybody reading this and thinking, "wait a sec. I remember Andrew speaking pretty badly about Obama before." This is true. I was and continue to be a huge Hillary Clinton supoorter. She is a hero of mine and I wish she were still running...but she's not. The "better man won" if you will. If I met Obama today I may bitchslap him for not picking Hillary as his VP but what's passed is past and Joe Biden is a great choice. Anyways, goodnight. I love you all. Current Music: The Cranberries- Everybody Else is Doing it... (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 16th, 2008
11:24 pm	Nope. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 13th, 2008
12:28 pm	sunflowers I was just watching the Food Network before work... until that Paula Dean woman came on. I had to shut the TV off with a quickness. I find her insufferable. So I figured I would scribble some thoughts on here. I talked to the boyfriend yesterday about issues we are having. We discussed what's been going on with him and what I am feeling. A typical boy, he isn't very good at talking about his feelings so I did most of the talking LoL. I told him that after a year of being together I am more in love with him than ever... but I feel him slipping away. The joy of having a best friend and lover seems fleeting. He's more of the annoying roomate lately :x But we are both going to work on things. One thing is going to be setting aside time to be together sexually. Baby steps towards making us closer emotionally. We also need to get out of the house and just hang out. We haven't really done that since moving in together. So I guess things are good for me today. I am the only one responsible for my happiness. I guess that's my motto for the day. Boyfriend can't make me happy, co-workers can't make me happy, family can't make me happy. Only I can. They're just there for support I suppose. Anyways, I am biking to work today so off I go! Current Music: side effects- mc (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 12th, 2008
12:03 pm	following the bread crumbs but not getting home... wow. Way too long since I've updated my LJ or even been on LJ. Last I wrote I was in San Diego. Amazing time. The bf came and everybody loved everybody. My father referred to him as my roommate a few times which made laugh. So 1970. The gay partner introduced as the roomie. But like my bro-on-law said, they have made huuuge progress in terms of accepting my sexuality so I'll give Pa a break. The minute I arrived back in VA after my trip to CA my life was and has continued to be hectic. I immediately looked for a new job and got one. I now work at a deli. Slicing meat and cheese. So not my thing. But the truth is that it is mind-numbingly easy and that's what I need right now. School is highly demanding and the less stress I must deal with at work the better. A few coworkers of mine are mentally unstable but it is more fascinating than frustrating. On a scale of 1 - 10 my home life is a 6 right now. Not cute, right? This score is a cumulation of financial stresses and relationship/ roommate issues. My car has broken down. Repairs will be over $1,000. I bike or take the boyfriends car to work/school. I've lost my glasses so I'm pretty much blind. In my relationship, emotional and physical needs are not being met. That may sound more ominous and dysfunctional than it really is but...I'm just not the happiest boyfriend at the moment. Not the happiest roommate either. I get no assistance in cleaning or laundry or anything of the sort from the one roommate that has no job, no school, and no real obligations to speak of... which goes back to my emotional needs being unmet in my relationship. Not trying to put all my business out in my stupid LJ but I'm just trying to express why I haven't been writing much. My life has been relatively uneventful. I've been busy... and quite frankly not as content as I should be. Gotta go get ready for work. Current Music: bright eyes- cassadaga (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
11:04 am	SD Here I am in California! It is so good to be home. The weather has been perfect and the last 2 days couldn't have been more fun. I flew in on Friday evening and went to dinner in Old Town San Diego. Reeeaaally good Mexican food. I miss that so bad. Had margaritas and caught up with my family. Saturday we went to Coronado where my aunts were staying at the Hotel del Coronado. Perfect San Diego weather. Sun was out all day. Cool breeze. I laid out on the beach with a paperback and a beer all day. We hung out in the hotel pool when the sun got too hot. Just a perfect day. Then Friday we drove up to Suncoast Plaza to shop. Afterward we went up to Hollywood to see Wicked. OMG. What a great fucking play. I was not enthusiastic about seeing it at all. I left that theatre with a huge smile on my face that lasted all the way home. Just a great performance. Then to top off my night I drove thru Jack in the Box for a spicy crispy chicken sandwich! Best. Night. Ever. Today I just hung around the parents house. They are both gone which is a nice break ;-). They can both be a little intense sometimes in their own unique ways. Watched all the past Weeds Season 4 episodes and ate junk food. No weed for Andrew, just Weeds. Mary Louise Parker. Brilliant. Mwah. Now off to Hillcrest/North Park to visit the girls ;-). Kiwi, Salsa, and Mimi be getting together for a little coffee chatter. ya know how girls do ;-) ...OH! And for dinner tonight: SOMBREROS!!! God I love California. Current Music: Wicked (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
9:39 am	i <3 jesus Yesterday at work this woman I was serving asked if I had Jesus in my heart... My response? "Absolutely, I do!" I'm not messing with my tips, man! (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 5th, 2008
9:07 am	Just want to point out how stupid my job is... I got called into work on the fourth of july. I immediately knew this was bullshit because I can see the schedule for the day online and it seemed as though there was a full floor plan (every section was covered by a waiter). So I take of my bathing suit and throw down my beach ball and head into work. When I get there the place is DEAD. When I get called in I expect there to be a long wait for tables or muchos reservations... but none of that yesterday. SO I was pretty much pissed but decided I wasn't going to complain or bitch. That was until other servers started bitching AT ME for coming in. "It's so slow. We haven't even had any guests yet and now they bring an extra person on which means less money for us..." So it is not only unfair to drag me in on the holiday, but it is unfair to the people that are stuck there trying to make money when all the would-be customers are at the beach... Well to wrap this all up, I got a table of 2 people maybe 10 minutes after I got there. They ordered an appetizer and 1 beer then left. Right when they got up my manager told me I could leave. Yeppers. I drove 20 miles to serve 1 tables for 15 minutes. It was hard for me to be mad at the time because I was just excited I could go to the beach finally. Now thinking back though it was bullshit and I'm really, truly going to find a new job. Yeah I made $5 from the people I served for 15 minutes but that pays for the gas to get there. It doesn't pay for my time which I value highly. So fuck that place. Anyways, I went to the beach with Ben and our friend Jennifer. We brought my miniature pinscher and Jennifer's mini dachshund named Chili Dog. He is 2 months old and the cutest dog EVER. Anyways, got some sun, had some beer, and watched very large fireworks being set off about 20 feet away from me... which was rather scary tbh but beautiful. All in all I had a nice Independence Day. Now I have to go get ready to go back to that bullshit job of mine. I want to say fuck them and ditch work today but I'm soooo broke!!!! :'-( ttfn. Current Music: I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time- Mariah w/ T.I. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 3rd, 2008
6:03 pm	omg. I'm stuffed! Pizza Hut p'zones are yummy. Anyways, I am writing with just a quick thought. It's about my job. They always schedule "Stand-By" shifts. It means I have to call that day at that time to see if they need me. They do it just in case people call in sick or they are understaffed for whatever reason they will have backup. I understand it but it sucks. Especially since I'm scheduled to Stand-By tomorrow morning. The fucking 4th of July! I want to go to the beach dammit. I have plans that I can't confirm till noon tomorrow because I'm not sure if I'm working till then. It's bullshit. Sick of this job for realsies. But really I can't complain since I haven't applied at any other places yet. Going to watch The Descent now. Why all the shitty horror movies lately? The Boyfriend has taken over the Netflix queue... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008
5:35 pm	My Day. I just finished watching the movie One Missed Call. What a horrible film. Officially the stupidest movie ever. Srsly. I want my 2 hours back... Anyways, besides the damn movie today was a fabulous day. I was supposed to work but, true to form, I took the day off. :-) It was such a beautiful day I couldn't stand being locked up in that dumpy restaurant! So instead I rode my bike to the beach! It was amazing. There is a bike path the essentially leads from my front door and ends at the boardwalk of the beach. I took that to 24th street and went for a swim. It was sooo nice to float around in the water. I've got this thing where I go under water and pretend I'm dead. I just hold my breath and let my body be suspended under water for a while. It's very therapeutic and I recommend it to everybody. Or maybe I'm just crazy. Anyhoo. I dried off and biked down the boardwalk a bit. Once I felt my back getting a little crisp under the sun I headed home. Now I'm a bit sun burnt but it's ok. I need some color before I head to California. I am thinking of getting that spray-on Mystic tan before I go. Anybody tried it? Might be a little too orange though. I dunno... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 30th, 2008
10:04 pm	Let's Go For a Ride. Ok, so here's the deal. I have this plan in my head that I can't get out. I can't stop running these ideas through my head. It all began with the occurence of 3 small events. All sort of meaningless events coming together to bring this epiphany to me of what needs to be done in my life. Event #1: I bought the new Coldplay CD. Event #2: I bought my new bike. Event #3: My friend at work put in her 2 weeks notice. Now these 3 events that have no connection or importance have lead me to become obsessed with one thing: backpacking through Europe. Let me explain. The day before I left for my last trip to Europe I bought the Coldplay "X&Y" CD. I listened to the album nonstop throughout my backpacking trip and it will forever remind me of riding a train to Berlin or laying on the beach in Barcelona. And now when I listen to the new album it really brings me back and makes me realize how long it has been since I've traveled abroad which is a true passion of mine. I mentioned earlier my new bicycle. I have to admit every time I get on it I am reminded of Amsterdam. Everybody in Amsterdam gets around on bikes. I rented a bike while there and rode all throughout the city. One of my fondest memories is waking up at dawn and riding the bike to the outskirts of the city. I followed the Amstel river out of the city and found a spot to sit a smoke Dutch as the day began. It was a perfect moment. Sitting in a spot Van Gogh undoubtedly sat and painted many times. Smoking the best weed in the world. Watching the sun rise in beautiful Dutch countryside. Priceless. SO these two things have had me daydreaming of Europe for some time now. Saturday at work my friend tells me she's putting in her two weeks notice so she can go backpacking in Europe for a month with her 3 best friends. I didn't know how to feel... I was happy and excited for her. On the other hand jealousy was seeping out of my pores. Above all else I felt a sense of clarity. A moment of truth. I've been so lost lately about school. I just switched my major and thus committed more time/money to fucking college. I feel so out of place in Virginia. My hope was to finish school ASAP and move to New York. Traveling was the last thing on my mind... But now I am reminded of a promise I made to myself. I promised after my last trip that I would go backpacking again before I got too much older... before I settled into a career and graduate school etc. Now is the time for that. I am still more than happy to stay in hostels and bounce around Europe with only a backpack full of clothes. I am ready for it again. I begin, from this point on, to save money for a trip to Europe. I invite anybody interested to come along. The more the merrier! The tentative date for said trip is SUMMER 2009, a year from now. That's it. My heart is set. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 29th, 2008
9:47 am	Biking Thru Europe ok so, yay. I bought my new bike! I absolutely love it. I've been riding it pretty much every chance I get, even despite the smoke that's filling the air from all the fires around here. I ride it to the gym. I ride it to the bank. I ride it to the grocery store...and one of these days I'm going to ride it to work. But work is really really far so that will simply be a challenge to say that I did it. I've got to get ready for work right now so I can't write more. I just have to say though that I'm going to Europe! It's not even a "might go" or a "consider going". No. I am going. I have my mind and heart set on going again soon. More on that later though... mwahs and loves. Current Music: Counting Crows- Mr. Jones (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 28th, 2008
9:40 pm	LuLz Michael: WHAT are all those stains?! Dwight: Blood, semen, or urine. Michael: God, I hope that's urine... (LuLz. I fucking love The Office... especially Jim.) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
12:43 pm	Update Nothing new going on over here. Now that my cold is fading away my mood seems to be more pleasant. While I was sick everybody and everything drove me insane. I just wanted to lock myself in the bedroom... which is pretty much what I did. I spent about a week in bed! Anyways, I'm back on my feet and ready to get back to enjoying life ;-) I haven't been to the gym in at least a week! Today I head back to the gym. I am also going to buy my bike today!! Got my stupid-ass "economic stimulus" check from the government so I figure I will spend it on a bicycle. I have been wanting one for a while now and it is the perfect opportunity to get one. I figure it will be an investment. I can ride it to the gym and the store in order to save gas money. I also plan on getting a job closer to home in order to cut down on my gas usage. If that is the case I could just ride my bike to work! It would be fabulous. Anyways, off to the bike store! yayz. P.S. Yay for new Coldplay album. Loves it. Current Music: Coldplay- Viva la Vida (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 15th, 2008
9:10 pm	-_- Worst. Day. Ever. Work was shitty. Just shitty. No other word to describe it. To begin, I am still sick. I have this awful cold that attacked me out of nowhere. I'm slowly feeling better but it still sucks... The minute I got to work I was "triple sat". Meaning that 3 tables I was to be waiting on were seated at the same time. They were big tables too. Each with at least 5 people. So anyways, I was scrambling to get everybody taken care of and kept fucking up. From the minute that happened it just never got better. It was super busy due to the fact that it is Father's Day. So pretty much I was in over my head from the minute I started and never seemed to catch up till the night crew came in to take over... So I come home. Eat some yummy Chinese food and get in bed to finish Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince... Only to discover that Dumbledore DIES. God what a tragic and horrible thing to discover when I'm already feeling sick and having a bad day! Dumbledore is the best! So wise and powerful and loving... now he's dead. Well shit. (I don't buy it though. Dumbledore is too clever and magical to be gone for good...) Anyways, I'm going to sleep now. I'm not giving this day a chance to get worse ;-) Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Bye Bye (remix)- Mariah feat. Akon & Lil Wayne (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 12th, 2008
7:26 pm	*sigh* "I just want to see you cry like a woman." The reasoning my boyfriend gives for staring at me with a smirk on his face as Carrie Bradshaw once again brings tears to my eyes. Gee, thanks. I'm a woman now apparently. I enjoy romantic films. I enjoy romantic books. I enjoy romantic music. I enjoy being romanced, which Ben knows nothing about. So I guess that makes him a Man and me a woman. This is very upsetting to me, I must confess. My problem, though, is not with Ben and his insensitivity. It's with this culture and these fucking gender roles that are purely socially constructed. Why is it feminine to feel and show emotion? That's just bullshit. My best friend told me her 6 year old nephew saw the movie E.T. for the first time last night and he cried. This just shows me he is sensitive and caring, as most healthy children are. But through the socialization process boys are told that sort of emotional expression isn't how men should act. That sort of deluded manipulation is just wrong. I'm proud that my parents taught me it was okay to be sensitive and emotional. I just hope that little 6 year old boy is not corrupted. I hope in 10 years he can still acquiesce to the emotions he feels when watching E.T. and I hope he is not ridiculed by some asshole sitting next to him. Current Music: Hallelujah- Rufus Wainwright (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
9:43 am	Garage Doors and Horse Shit. Good morning... or something. I am so annoyed and I've never been happier to go to work. I wake up this morning to a big letter from Ben's mom addressed to he and I. A little backstory for you... I live with my boyfriend and his mother. She is not going through the best times financially for various reasons. Yet she won't stop shopping! And she bought a new garage door about a month ago. The problem is that she didn't want to pay anyone to install it. Ben's sister and her boyfriend were all enthusiastic to install it until they saw what a horrible task is really is. They backed out. Ok. SO this letter to Ben and I pretty much says, "Ben and Andrew, its getting hotter and the electricity bill is going up. Please install the garage door today to keep the heat out and save money. blah blah blah... I can't afford to pay to get it installed so you need to do it today... Help me out so I don't have to raise your rent to accommodate the rising electric bill." Oh where to begin venting my frustration with this shitty letter. I'll start by saying the agreement when I moved in here was not to pay rent and act as a handyman. It was to simply pay rent every month and I can stay here. I wasn't aware my rent would fluctuate as the seasons change. Quite frankly it's bullshit. Especially since the past few nights the a/c was up so high that I woke up shivering and needed to bundle up in sweatpants and a coat! TURN THE FUCKING THERMOSTAT DOWN! (which I took the liberty of doing... cuz I have sense.) But honestly, I wouldn't mind helping her out with work around the house. I will gladly mow a lawn or hammer in a nail every now/then. But this fucking garage door business is out of my hands. I looked over the installation manual already. It looks like the most complicated task that involves measuring and trimming and buying new parts etc etc. This is a task people are trained to do for a living because every schmuck can't just pick up a garage door and install it like Legos. The instructions don't even have words of clear pictures because they assume a professional will install the thing. Not some pansy faggot who has to repeat, "righty tighty, lefty loosey" the whole time he's screwing in a screw. And she can't afford to pay an installer. Ok, I understand that but it raises two important points... DON'T BUY A NEW GARAGE DOOR IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD IT and STOP SHOPPING AT CRAFT FAIRS OR BUYING NEW CURTAINS, NEW PAINT, NEW WALLPAPER, NEW COMPUTER, NEW OVEN, NEW DECK IN THE BACKYARD, NEW WEED TRIMMER ETC FUCKING ETC. Then maybe she could pay the hundred bones to have it installed right. Fuck it. I have to go to work anyways. Even if I was dying to help her install the stupid thing in the 100 degree heat, I couldn't. So there. ::sticks out tongue:: (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 9th, 2008
7:29 am	workin hard for the money I'm here at work waiting to get started. Its going to be a long day: I'm working a double shift. That means I will be here from open to close... So from 11am to at least midnight. Its all good though. I need MONEY!!!! I have 2 bills due tomorrow and a 2 week trip to California coming up in a month. And Ben is out of town so I have no reason to hurry home later. So wish me luck that I will bring in at least $100 today!! (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 7th, 2008
11:14 pm	Beauty He took a small drink of tea and watched her. She was about five feet six, fortyish or a little older, pretty face, and a fine, warm body. But there were pretty women everywhere he traveled. Such physical matters were nice, yet, to him, intelligence and passion born of living, the ability to move and be moved by subtleties of the mind and spirit, were what really counted. That's why he found most young women unattractive, regardless of their exterior beauty. They had not lived long enough or hard enough to possess those qualities that interested him - Robert James Walker, The Bridges of Madison County (Comment on this)
2:57 pm	:'( Well, it has happened. Obama is the Democratic nominee. Hillary has conceded. She just gave a great speech endorsing Sen. Obama and stressing the ultimate need to get a Democrat back in the White House. You can read her speech HERE. It was a beautiful speech and made me proud to be a Hillary supporter. I have been behind Hillary Rodham Clinton since Day 1 and I am terribly sad she lost the race. Okay! I admit it! I cried during her speech. I just can't help but be sad today. She would have been a great president. I still truly believe that, though her campaign was mismanaged. Obama ran a better campaign and I hope Obama proves to be an equally great president. I know I will do anything to see John McCain (Bush III) lose in November. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 27th, 2008
11:30 pm	Brooklyn The Brooklyn Bridge is Beautiful. <3 Current Music: i stay in love - mariah (2 Comments |Comment on this)